Speedy fingers, serious brain

I've got to be faster at replying people - not because I'm often off my phone/procrastinating, but it honestly takes time (we're talking one, two hours?) to think through and reply thoughtfully on an issue. It didn't help that I replied to a few in the last two days.

The things I do for people I care about. I really should care less. It's not as if people treat me the same way, and I'm doing waaaaayyyy far out left field as a friend. I've confided in MH once about this, and he replied saying that that behaviour is just me.

Typical M. oh sometimes I wish I was just an airhead who doesn't delve into serious topics and keep to making small talk or yakking rumours and hearsay and whatever brainless topics there are in the world. It's both amazing how even talking about skincare to the online people I do talk to goes like this - "blah blah pH is too high and henceforth not optimal for the skin barrier, blah niacinamide is best synergistically used with n-acetyl glucosamine in a formula to get rid of hyperpigmentation, but do look at vitamin C - l-ascorbic acid is unstable but more effective than magnesium/sodium ascorbyl phospate, do get a formula that uses vitamin E and ferulic acid inside if you get LAA".

like, okay, it's a bit toned down that what I had expected, but still dude, it's the internet.

le sigh. reminds me of SW and her belief about how dudes will never get a lady which is their intellectual equal as their partner because it'll be all too intense. hell. I want an intellectual equal as my partner, if I ever do have a partner. (I'm betting I won't, ha.) 

maybe intense is good? and maybe I should secretly thank the gods may be that I'm bisexual for that lololol.